Diet Struggles Pt. 2

The struggle is real. Oh boy. So, yesterday, we had a vendor lunch at work, and what did they bring in? Boston Market. First of all, who doesn't like Boston Market? No one. They brought chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy, MAC-N-CHEESE (My favorite comfort food!), salad, cornbread and butter, brownies, and chicken. Oh my goodness. The chicken smelled so good, dripping those lovely drippings off the skin, and the mac-n-cheese looked so creamy, and wonderful.

Note how I said everything looked and smelled good. What did I eat of that meal? About a 4-6 oz. portion of chicken breast that I peeled the skin off of. *pouts* Seriously though, I was surprised at how little I really wanted the stuff. I mean, today, honestly, those brownies are calling my name a bit, but, I'm not going anywhere near them. I think I'm going to have to learn with the struggle of vendor lunches. As long as I can get in there, and get whatever I can eat (if anything) early, before other people start going in and eating my favorite foods in front of me, then I will be fine.

My husband though, is totally testing my resolve... *angry face* He still has a good sized portion of hash brown casserole in the fridge. I LOVE hash brown casserole. :( But, I guess it's the way I feel about the situation right now... and this may sound dramatic, but, once you think about it, it's really not... my life depends on me succeeding at this. And, honestly, it does. I'm not dying right now, or anything like that, but with the way I am at this moment, theoretically, I could. I could have a heart attack or stroke, I could develop full blown diabetes, and go blind, or have to have an amputation like my grandfather did. And I don't want that. I want to see my daughter graduate high school or college, and I want to see her walk down the aisle. I want to hold my grandchildren, and watch them grow up. And with my health in its current state, that's just not happening. :(

I have my one mandatory exercise class on Thursday. We'll see how it goes, and if I want to keep going to those classes. I'm going to have to pack a change of clothes in my car, and plan to change as soon as I get to the office. Well, I guess that's all for now.

~♥~
Lady D