Tough times...

Yesterday was a tough day, I'm not going to lie. I haven't been sleeping well lately (no reason in particular, just been staying up later, and I'm still getting up at the same time), and I can't have caffeine. I've always had a saying: "You can go without sleep or without food, but not both." Before I was on the diet, when I had a day (or days) where I wouldn't get enough sleep, I'd drink Mountain Dew (I don't do coffee), and load up on carbs and protein that day. Now, since I'm on the diet, I can't have caffeine, and I can't have carbs. It leaves me feeling extremely tired. :(

Yesterday started out great! My daughter and I had breakfast together, and then I took her out on a nice long walk in her stroller... where we had a horrible meltdown in the middle of the walk, because she didn't want to get back in the stroller after playing in the park, and I had to cut my walk short. Then, after she calmed down, and my husband came home (he had to make an emergency work run), he took me out to Mexican for lunch, since we realized that I could eat a small portion of fajitas, as long as I didn't eat the shells, or most of the toppings (sour cream, small amounts of the guac, ect.). While we were at the restaurant, my daughter was extremely well behaved, and enjoyed eating out with mommy and daddy. And the restaurant gave me a beautiful red rose for Mother's Day. So, not a bad lunch. Grocery shopping went good as well. You're probably thinking, ok... meltdown, not great, but so far, good day!

Well, my daughter fell asleep for her nap as soon as we got home from the store. It was when she woke up that she started being a typical two year old and throwing tantrums... oh, but wait, my daughter is only 15 months. *sigh* So, now I'm hungry (I was really hungry yesterday for some reason), dealing with tantrums, craving bread (I bought my husband and daughter some blueberry bagels (since we discovered that she LOVES bagels), and it smelled amazing, and I wanted some so bad and... yeah. I was going to make some cinnamon vanilla cloud bread, but forgot to buy the cream of tartar. So, mommy had her own little meltdown after the baby went to bed... and by went to bed, I mean got put down in her crib and then screamed at mommy and daddy for 30 minutes until mommy went back in and let her run around a bit more. *sigh* Happy Mother's Day to me.

Yesterday, as you can see, was tough. And previously, I would have turned to food. But I can't do that anymore. I totally resisted the bagel, I didn't dig into my husband's snack cake stash, and honestly, I ended up just eating 1 c. SF (sugar free) vanilla Jell-O pudding. Why? It satisfied my need for sweet while still staying compliant.

Oh! I bought some chocolate Fairlife milk yesterday, since that is compliant with the plan even though it's 2% (yeah, I don't get it either). Not a fan. Honestly, it tastes like a Slimfast chocolate shake. So, I'm going to finish the jug I bought, and then stick to my 1% white milk with SF Hershey's syrup.

So, the point of this post is that if you're truly committed to this change, you will find your willpower. I never thought I had willpower when it came to food, but last night I proved that I do. :)

~♥~
Lady D