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So, most of you who know me know me as a bubbly extrovert. Heh. That's not actually the case. I'm a bookworm who loves nothing more than to be at home hanging out with my husband and daughter. It actually takes work to show the extrovert. One thing that this change has made me notice is that it's bringing out my introvert tendencies more... except for at concerts. I was dancing like no one was watching, because well, I like to dance. I can't dance, but I like to dance. So, I was the crazy lady who looked like she was convulsing, most likely. :D
But, especially at work, where I used to be more of a social butterfly, talking to everyone, hanging out in my co-worker's office, and chatting while we work, I'm not so much anymore. I like to stay in my office, and keep my head down while I get my work done. Honestly, I think it's made a bit of tension between me and a couple of people. I could be reading too much into it, but, there you go.
I think most of this is a body image issue I'm having right now. I'm transitioning, and I don't really feel confident, or beautiful right now. And no, I'm not fishing for compliments, that's just how I feel. My husband has had to reassure me several times that he still finds me sexy, even as I'm going through this. I know that once I lose the weight, too, I'm going to have to have plastic surgery at least on my arms, if not my belly. So, that will be another hit on my self-esteem, since I will be much smaller, and healthier, but I will have loose skin hanging all over. So, be prepared for your mental health to change a bit while going through this process. I personally don't think I'm as cranky anymore (my husband might disagree with me on that ;) ), but I'm much more inside my head. A lot of reflection is happening right now.
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Lady D
