So, I know I've talked about hormones a few times on here. Hormones are stored in your fat cells, and as you lose weight, your body releases those. Yesterday, I had one of my worst emotional days since I was pregnant with my daughter. It was bad. I'm not going to go into the details of what set it off, but it had a lot to do with my self-consciousness about how I'm feeling about my body right now.
You read how they say that this journey is mostly head stuff. I didn't really have too many issues with the head stuff until now. It also probably doesn't help that it's around that time of the month for me. So, there's that. But yeah. I've been having a lot of body image issues lately. Some days, I look at myself in the mirror, and I feel super sexy and confident. Other days I feel like I did before I lost any of the weight. Fat, ugly, horrible. Yesterday was somewhere in between for me. And it set me off. Sadly, my husband got the brunt of my meltdown... I wasn't really angry so much as I was just sad and depressed. And I think it makes him sad... the way that I look at myself sometimes. But I can't help it.
Long story short, yesterday ended with me with a migraine, in bed, burrowed under the covers. Today I almost feel like I have a hangover. I'm tired, I'm feeling a bit fuzzy-headed, my eyes feel like they're full of gunk. :/ So, yeah. Not a great day so far. Oh well. With this journey you'll have good days and bad days I guess. Yesterday was a bad day. Today we'll work on turning it around.
So, when I started this journey, I brought some of my not so healthy snacks and drinks in to work and gave them away. Well, one of the drinks wasn't that it's not healthy, it's just not approved for my plan... No Sugar Added Swiss Miss Hot Cocoa... I just put it in the coffee cabinet here and work, and once it got cold, about two weeks later, I was told that it was all gone, much to my surprise. We stock regular hot cocoa too.
So, I do the Staples orders for the office too. And I came to the realization that if someone was drinking the No Sugar Added hot cocoa, maybe they would like a Sugar Free option for coffee creamer too. We already have Equal and Sweet & Low for sweeteners, but what about creamer? Or what if we have a diabetic patient come in that wants some cream in their coffee? So, I ordered some Coffeemate Sugar Free French Vanilla coffee creamer. Someone is using it. I got a big old cat with the cream smile on my face when I saw that. And I've been ordering the No Sugar Added hot cocoa too. If I can help my co-workers or patients get healthier, I will. I know that several of my co-workers have all made New Year's resolutions to get healthier and fitter. I know that's not because of me, but, that's awesome, and I'd happily help them in any way that I can. :D
~♥~
Lady D
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