I'm sure this is a word we've all heard, and even maybe experienced. But Hangry, when on this diet is a real thing. Also, because you're losing your fat stores, your body is now surging with hormones. What does this make? A psycho. No, literally. I find myself going from weepy, to angry, to starving, to fine sometimes in a matter of minutes. But, the good news? It will get better. The bad news? It won't get better until post-op, and not until a while post-op, since my body is going to have to adjust to even further changes.
So, last night, I was waiting on my husband to come home, and I was starving. We had plans to make ham for dinner, but I really, really, really did not want to cook. And he came home, and he was hot from being in the kitchen at work (he's a general manager at a nationwide Pizza chain), and he just wanted to take a shower. So, I was sitting on the couch sulking, because I didn't want to cook, and my poor unsuspecting husband sat down in the chair. I asked him if he was hungry. He said he was, but couldn't remember what we were having. I told him we had decided on ham. He said, ok, go ahead and start it. I said I didn't want to cook. He said that all I had to do was throw some pieces in a pan to warm it up. I yelled at him, I DON'T WANT TO F***ING cook! Yeah. Hormones. And Hanger. It's a thing.
Then, I knew I was horrible, so, I started cooking. He got out of the shower, and came to help. Well, I put the entire 1/4 ham into a medium fry pan. I was getting angry at the ham. He made me laugh, and then kicked me out of the kitchen so that I didn't send the ham through the wall. By the end of the night, I was in tears, apologizing, and just giving in to the emotions. Part of my problem is that I bottle things up. So, I'll let it get bigger, and bigger, and then it just explodes. Part of the problem is that I don't really have anyone to talk to that's going through these same things. I have my online support group, but, we're all at different stages in our journey. And unless someone is keeping a big secret, no one in my life is experiencing these things at this same time. So, I feel alone. I know I have my physical support (family and friends), and my online support, but, I still feel alone. So, I bottle. And that's bad. So, my suggestion? Find a battle buddy so to speak. Someone who is going through the same thing as you at this very same time. Someone to commiserate with. Someone to talk to at the very least.
So, again, if you choose this journey, warn those around you that you're going to be a little psychotic occasionally. So, anyone out there have any fun hangry stories?
So, this morning, I finally got to try the Premier Clear Protein Drink... not going to lie, YUCK. It's got the strangest after taste... almost like beef broth, and it's supposed to be Tropical Punch flavored. I'm at least able to tolerate it, which is a good thing, because I had my husband buy a case of it... I'd still recommend trying it, but, as of right now... ew.... I told my husband that, and he was like, Honey... you should know by now that these things are not going to taste good. *sigh* Why can't they taste good? :(
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Lady D
